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Privacy with Ashtray

all I needed was a little time alone and have a smoke


I didn’t need to become your privacy with an ashtray


© dld 07.12.13

questioner & writer discussing habits

Q: don’t you feel guilty for not getting much done?
W: i’ve a few journals with notations all over
they need me

i have (pause) written, as tho i’m going to finish it shortly
they need me

and things with boxes around them and stars,
exclamation points and lines with arrows
directing to what’s ‘Next’,
i guess to warrant urgent completion
they need me most

Q: how do you move forward from so much distraction, from so many artistic outbursts?
W: i stare at the page, waiting for the page to talk
forgetting about those lost words,
’cause that’s too much of a pain to search for them.
laziness comes into this funk too.
aren’t i a pathetic role model for writer’s everywhere!?!
Q: she laughs

W: i’d much rather sink into the scene before me…
the fire
a pot of coffee
and an ashtray between us

than to take all those loose ends and
connect the dots
to make sense.

Q: so, you feel like you are fighting the page to coax out the words?
W: i fight scuffmarks on pages overturned
the attempts are fruitless and the ritual sabbotaged,
but that’s my place, isn’t it? to take the seeds from the rind
and water them down with less words
excreting more growth, more sense
so i am left with
a comfortable poem to leave on my coffeetable,
next to the ashtray and wandered dots of no consequence to me,

Q: thank you for this insight. i will continue this interview in next month’s edition.

……………………………………………………….3/28/2008; rev. 8/10/10, rev. 11/30/10
Writing Challenge for KaizenMuse – The Writer is IN, Writing Club