five hours awake

i’ve been feeling like crap………… i’ve been delving into my writing things and discovering things and uncovering things, did i mention that my leg is killing me, and i cannot sleep.

so i wrote this at whatever o’clock in the tworllly hours of august 8th:

five hours awake
nothing accomplished
gotta be quiet can’t wake the closed door
in my quiet
i blank out at television
only the slowing of tires
to tell me it’s a red light
..how worthless to housework
..to make a list
..to think enuf to write a thought

don’t have one thought
toomanyblanketmyblankness
outside of being mad at myself
for only lasting until noon
……….every day
………… ’til noon
………..every day is the same day
…………. ’til noon
……….. then the remaining twelve plus
…………hours that i cannot go to sleep
are spent in an awake state
of unconsciousness
w/no memory
w/out caring
just going through the motions
of Living
w/out life.
____________________________________© dld 8-8-6

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